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Toodles, I'm back ! 
It tooks me quite sometimes to get here aite ? Sorry !
*As if there's someone who wait for your entry lah kan ? meh *   

Hmm it just a quick short entry. I've been on hiatus for such a loooong time, and I actually forgot I have this bloggy. I even forgot how to write *Sengih* So, I really reaaally have no idea what to write but over these few past yearsss there're a few things that I've learned. 

First, you don't regret over something that once made you smile. Never regret it. And never fear people's judgement, because you know yourself better than anyone else. You are you, they only know your name, don't give a damn care about anything they said about you * ohh look who's talking  * -..-  

Second, don't be afraid to go after the things you want to do. Even if you're the only one who wants to do that. Just do it, ignore the obstacles. And don't be afraid to pay the price, though. No pain no gain bruh.

Third, chuck all your regrets into the bin. Don't tell me you are going to live with your regret forever ? No you dont. It's a mental suicidal, you know. Have a faith that everything happens for a reason. Just leave everything behind, can you ? You can't go back ayway. And they cannot be changed, undone and forgotten. So be real, learn to let go and have a life, as life's too short to sigh.

Lastly experience is the worst teacher, it gives us test before presenting the lesson. Anddd how could I summarize all the tears and the laughter, all the pain and joy, the courage and fears, the bitter and sweet moments of the past years in just an entry ?

Grrrr, i perdon ! *sorry again *
Fi Amanillah !

Dear Allah, please take away anything from me that takes me away from You.

She

Day by day
She realize that she's no longer herself
That her whom she used to be in the past
flew away as time passes by

The one that bear everything that she've been told to
The one that can't even stand to speak up her mind because she's afraid
The one that always held back her feeling even when she's about to explode

Has fade away..

And now,

She don't even know herself

So much unpredictable that even herself can't read her mind

She speaks up whatever that she had on her mind

She act through impulse rather than thinking about it first

She show them that she's sturdy as an oak yet she's still fragile inside

She easily get mad over a small thing  yet at one second she turn her back and start crying

She talk, laugh and nag so much in front of others yet she's still crying by herself whenever she's alone

This girl I'm talking about..

She's such..

A pitiful girl

:___________

p/s: Please pray for her. So that she can gather her strength and herself 

to wake up from this long dream and transform to the best version of herself.