Replay

i felt like going back. i felt regret . As if i could go back to that one point in time, where i wish i'd acted in another way. i didn't say what i ever said . Or i never did what i ever did, because i knew what i did was wrong, since i had a bad feeling in my heart, telling me that i have erred. And i want to fix things and make everything okay, but i just don't know how .

I am human. I am not perfect I'm not the best servant of the Almighty God, I'm not the best daughter,I'm not the best friend,I'm definitely no angel,Who never does any wrong.

 

I have wronged. I have made mistakes. And sometimes I don't know how to go back to that place where everything was right. Sometimes I don't know how to make it right. i try to do good, and try to show a good example as a human being, and do my best so that my flaws and wrongs aren't flaunted to the whole world, not so that people would think i am an angel , Not so that i can be called a goody-two-shoes , GOSH ! but yeah i also don't know why am i act like this .

However, i do realise that i can try my best, but sometimes my faults can be seen clearly by other people. Only in Allah lies perfection. May my flaws become a reminder to myself, that i am weak, i am forgetful, i am full of weaknesses. i embrace my  flaws, but i don't cherish it and enjoy it. Instead, i strive to become better each and everyday . So that i can truly fulfill my purpose of life which is as a servant of Allah and as a better person i guess .

ya allah , Give me Your protection from all my wrongdoings and imperfections . Give me strength to be steadfast in this path . Let my flaws be a reminder to myself . For only You .are the Most Gracious, Most Merciful , Most Forgiving , May there always be a way back, whenever i  do err, whenever i do wrong, whenever i stray from the path of rightness. Amin.